I Needed to Deal with This Anger Inside of Me Once and for All

I was looking for a place to take a court ordered anger management course. I wondered about my need for it even though it was court ordered. The one who has an anger problem is truly the last one to admit it. I searched for signs of anger management treatment necessity. I discovered that I had real problem. It was not severe when you compare how my dad lived. His anger sent him to prison for four decades. I remember growing up without him and it is those thoughts that have me seeking help. When I got into an argument that lead to a fight, it landed me in jail and then in court. I do not want to end up like my dad. He died in prison paying for his severe crimes. He was brutal to my mother. I am not like that at home with my wife and children. Yes, I do yell and occasionally will break something inanimate. It is wrong, yet I do not strike family members. My trouble comes with my willingness to strike others who push my buttons. I am hoping to find a way to cut the power to those buttons.